UP & Rise again
I can still remember those times when things aren’t going right as normally does, because of mental health issues. I struggle for anxiety disorder and depression for years. I cried several times. I can’t see myself having an interest in anything. All are living in a black room. Negativity is eating me, the WHOLE me. Those years are spent with disappointments, failures, hates, and fits of anger and suicidal.
I’m out of focus, anger, and feeling worried at all time are amongst problem that I met. So, how can I begin if that the case?
Remembering of giving up my long-term job to get rid of tension and pressured from my work because I thought this is the only way to distress from negativity. And to look at another phase of my life like working outside of my comfort zone is a better way of making myself active again. But it isn’t easy. It brought me to become more anxious about how to deal with the situation.
The only lesson I’ve learned from this situation was to take things to step by step. Don’t be rushed, and fooled for decision making, somehow it might lead you to a wrong move and worst-case scenario.
Just give a break and breathe. Trust yourself-gut.
I know it’s too early to say But, here I am sitting on a couch in front of my desk making THINGS TO DO LIST, excited to check the list of my planners, thinking randomly for my whereabouts. Because I know and I can feel my OLD me is back. Renewed, regain.
Process of Recovery
The process is not a one-session therapy only; it took years of seeking help, finding people who can understand the issue. It’s an ON and OFF recovery. You have to decide to disconnect and reconnect. Disconnect from unnecessary things even more and reconnect once again to a group of people who can help you to push YOU UP and rise again.
Failures and rejections are a powerful combination of lessons that brings the best in ME, in whatever I do and takes action. Unhappy days are a great source of my upcoming days. I know this is just the beginning of much more life lesson of SUCCESS.